Happy Anniversary!

Today is Chad and my anniversary. Which means that nine years ago today we were sealed in the San Diego temple in the company of all our dearest friends and family. At the time, I thought I loved Chad more than any one person could love another. Now I look back and realize how young and naive I was! As we've struggled through the successes and setbacks of life, my love for Chad has matured and deepened more than I thought possible. He is my best friend and my most favorite person in the whole world. I love you Chaddy!

Do you want the good news or the bad news first?

Well, bad news first. I have had another miscarriage. This is my second in a row. We were totally bummed about it, but we've had symptoms of a miscarriage for over a week (which will not be mentioned here in accordance with our house's strict TMI Ordinance), so we were prepared for it when we went in for the ultrasound yesterday. I was almost 10 weeks pregnant, but the baby had stopped living at six weeks. So, they gave me some medicine to clean out my uterus. Apparently, by "clean me out" they meant give me the gnarliest cramps I've ever had outside of labor. Long story a little less long, we are officially no longer pregnant.

Now for the good news. The upside is that we now know the secret combinations of magical medicines needed to get pregnant. And the doctor says that they consider you perfectly normal and healthy until you have three miscarriages in a row. Which means that after a short break, we will try again and no doubt be successful. As they say, third time is the charm. Also, it must be mentioned that we already have a perfect son and a perfect daughter, so we don't have much to be sad about.

And just real quick, I want to post a big thank you to Chad. He has been so kind and loving and patient with me throughout this whole process. He's stayed up until three o'clock in the morning to hold my hand and listen to me blubber. He's made me dinner, tended to the kids, gotten up early to watch the kids so that I could sleep in (after staying up all night comforting me), let me squeeze his hand to a bloody pulp when my tummy hurt, and reminded me that Heavenly Father's hand is guiding and directing all my affairs. He made me laugh when I couldn't stop crying and made me feel sane when I probably wasn't. And he's convinced me that babies are in our future, that I am healthy and able. In short, he's done the impossible. I love him so very much and couldn't imagine living my life without him. Everything is okay when he is near. And he does it all looking so dang sexy. Thank you Chaddy!!!