Saturday, January 3, 2009

Do you want the good news or the bad news first?

Well, bad news first. I have had another miscarriage. This is my second in a row. We were totally bummed about it, but we've had symptoms of a miscarriage for over a week (which will not be mentioned here in accordance with our house's strict TMI Ordinance), so we were prepared for it when we went in for the ultrasound yesterday. I was almost 10 weeks pregnant, but the baby had stopped living at six weeks. So, they gave me some medicine to clean out my uterus. Apparently, by "clean me out" they meant give me the gnarliest cramps I've ever had outside of labor. Long story a little less long, we are officially no longer pregnant.

Now for the good news. The upside is that we now know the secret combinations of magical medicines needed to get pregnant. And the doctor says that they consider you perfectly normal and healthy until you have three miscarriages in a row. Which means that after a short break, we will try again and no doubt be successful. As they say, third time is the charm. Also, it must be mentioned that we already have a perfect son and a perfect daughter, so we don't have much to be sad about.

And just real quick, I want to post a big thank you to Chad. He has been so kind and loving and patient with me throughout this whole process. He's stayed up until three o'clock in the morning to hold my hand and listen to me blubber. He's made me dinner, tended to the kids, gotten up early to watch the kids so that I could sleep in (after staying up all night comforting me), let me squeeze his hand to a bloody pulp when my tummy hurt, and reminded me that Heavenly Father's hand is guiding and directing all my affairs. He made me laugh when I couldn't stop crying and made me feel sane when I probably wasn't. And he's convinced me that babies are in our future, that I am healthy and able. In short, he's done the impossible. I love him so very much and couldn't imagine living my life without him. Everything is okay when he is near. And he does it all looking so dang sexy. Thank you Chaddy!!!

9 comments:

jjstringham said...

I am so sorry you had to go through all of that - AGAIN. Hopefully the short break will go by quickly and before you know it there will be a little bean again. If you ever want to talk I'm here.

Ashley said...

I'm so sorry to hear that, Heather. You have such a positive attitude. You're amazing. Hang in there. Let me know if I can do anything for you.

Michaelynn said...

Heather, I think you are amazing. Such a difficult experience to endure, but you are handling things beautifully. All I can say is that Chad is right - there is a divine plan in all of this - there is a hand guiding your life - there is hope and happiness to look forward to. You're in my thoughts...

Stephanie said...

I'm totally impressed by your positive attitude (not to mention your wonderful husband's support). I'm so sorry if my timing was really bad when I ran into you at the mall last week. I always seem to have the worst timing. I hope you're feeling better!

Mel said...

I'm so sorry, Heather! We all love you. I just don't know what to say but that.

Mark said...

We're So sorry, Heather! you know they always say, there is beautiful sky and sun shine after the storm . we hope you'll feeling better soon.

StraightAs said...

I'm so sorry to hear this Heather! We're all behind you and hoping for happiness ahead. Bless his heart, Chad is a great guy! Take care! ~Angela

cranfam5 said...

Bummer! I know that it will happen for you guys, I have to say that I am impressed with your attitude, but then again Heather you are the most upbeat person that I know! Good luck in the future!

WheelersSix said...

I'm so sorry to hear your news, but I, too am super impressed with the way you seem to be handling all this. I hope your next shot goes well. Keep us posted. I love reading about your family. :)